Hopes & Dreams of 2016


Well Hello there, and a big well done for surviving 2015 and meeting us all here in 2016. You have made it through the Jenner/Kardashian, spiralizing, glitter beard evolution and come through the other side. I must say I am proud of you.

Now as much as I would love to tell you how I spent my New Year in a beautiful gown strutting down a red carpet into some wild and glitzy shindig, I would be lying. No, instead I spent my NYE on my couch, I'd had a curry and a little nap and woke up in time to witness the annual tradition of watching Jool's Holland introducing people backwards. Lovely. I'm not just saying that, it really was, you see I am somewhat of a home bird and to be in my super soft dressing gown with a full tummy and not a care in the world is perfect for me. I've tried to live up to the New Year expectations a few years previous and it doesn't work for me. I find it somewhat anti-climactic and the idea of hailing in the New Year while already wrapped in my pj's, having a small (yet festive) bellow of Auld Lang Syne and then crawling into my bed sounds, well, rather lush actually. 

I must admit I was highly grateful to bid adieu to 2015, it's been a sore year shall we say. With endless doctors appointments and the ups and downs of the anxious struggle coupled with weight gain and mass breakouts (being slightly self deprecating and absorbed and obviously not forgetting many terror attacks, fears, and all round acts of hate and violence across the globe). I could not care less about 2015. But my friends please don't see this as a negative, for it is not. What is means is a bundle of hope and expectation for the year ahead I always think hitting rock bottom is never all that bad because it can never get any worse. So if you can cope with rock, you can cope with it all.

No, this year I feel may be my year. I have met some lovely people, bloggers, pr's and readers alike and I feel that my social radar may possibly be expanding to a size slightly larger than the walls of my flat. As much as right now I am not entirely happy with the way I look or feel, I have hope of the strength to change and maybe (if it is at all possible for the female gender) settle.

I think this year the mantra will be "you do you." Because at the end of the day why not? I often look at my life in a very negative manner, such as; you're 22 what do you have to show for it? You don't have a degree or a house, you're not married, you're not even sure what you want to do. And then I flip open my laptop and there you are, you're what I want to do (oo-err). I go to shops and feel uninspired and want to dress differently, that's what I want to do. I sit and endlessly watch YouTube listening to advice or tips or simply sketches, that's who I am and that is okay. In fact that is great because that gives me a focus. I can bet any of you can look at your lives in this way and feel exactly the same.

We aren't just created, we can't sit down one day and say I am going to be a doctor because that seems like the right thing to do. It's about what you want to do, that is the only way to succeed.

So this year I will do what I want to do, I will wear what I want to wear and say what I want to say and I really hope you will join me. I don't want to be suppressed by convention or trends.

So this year, you do you and for the love of all things holy ENJOY IT.

Love you.
xx