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I tried anti-depressants and I've been left like this!

. Tuesday, 12 January 2016 .

Hey Gorgeous,

This post is going to take me forever to write and you will soon find out why. I have suffered with mental illness since around the age of 13. I don't mind telling you this as I am an advocate for breaking down the stigma with mental illness.

Due to initially being so young when I started my journey into "curing" mental health I couldn't use any anti-depressants and really I didn't want to. At the time I was extremely stubborn and, well, teenage. I thought "this can't happen to me" and "I'm fine, I don't need tablets" despite getting out of bed everyday being increasingly difficult.

I lived like this for around 7 years, medication free. I tried counselling, it wasn't for me and the illness got increasingly worse and more crippling (this was also due to other circumstances out of my control that I might tell you about one day).

So, what am I going to do? I can't cope at work, I can't cope at home and the only place I feel safe is my bed. Let's explore the options of some tablets.

Long story short from then on I have been on multiple different doses of: Fluoxetine, Citalopram, Sertraline, Venlafaxine and now this new one I can't remember what it is, it begins with M and I can't be bothered to move to find out.

Due to the Venlafaxine, I suffered with Serotonin Syndrome which is essentially a poisoning of a chemical in the tablets. Great. I felt like death, literal death. The doctor then halved my dose so I felt even worse and tapered me off the drug so I could go on this new tablet.

I took the first of the new tablets last night but it clearly hasn't had time to kick in. I have been stuck in bed all day, I'm shaking, I have a fever, I am having full body twitches and my eyes aren't working at the same pace as my brain. I essentially feel drunk without all the fun of getting there.

If any of you are thinking of going in anti-depressants just know it's not as simple and easy as doctors might make out. My journey is still going and right now I feel 100% worse than when I started. It is not a decision to take lightly so please consider all options first.

I also want to thank for you being understanding towards mental illness, it is the same as a broken arm, unfortunately you just can't see it.

Stay strong beautiful and remember another day is another excuse for a new shade of lipstick! xx

Hey Gorgeous,

This post is going to take me forever to write and you will soon find out why. I have suffered with mental illness since around the age of 13. I don't mind telling you this as I am an advocate for breaking down the stigma with mental illness.

Due to initially being so young when I started my journey into "curing" mental health I couldn't use any anti-depressants and really I didn't want to. At the time I was extremely stubborn and, well, teenage. I thought "this can't happen to me" and "I'm fine, I don't need tablets" despite getting out of bed everyday being increasingly difficult.

I lived like this for around 7 years, medication free. I tried counselling, it wasn't for me and the illness got increasingly worse and more crippling (this was also due to other circumstances out of my control that I might tell you about one day).

So, what am I going to do? I can't cope at work, I can't cope at home and the only place I feel safe is my bed. Let's explore the options of some tablets.

Long story short from then on I have been on multiple different doses of: Fluoxetine, Citalopram, Sertraline, Venlafaxine and now this new one I can't remember what it is, it begins with M and I can't be bothered to move to find out.

Due to the Venlafaxine, I suffered with Serotonin Syndrome which is essentially a poisoning of a chemical in the tablets. Great. I felt like death, literal death. The doctor then halved my dose so I felt even worse and tapered me off the drug so I could go on this new tablet.

I took the first of the new tablets last night but it clearly hasn't had time to kick in. I have been stuck in bed all day, I'm shaking, I have a fever, I am having full body twitches and my eyes aren't working at the same pace as my brain. I essentially feel drunk without all the fun of getting there.

If any of you are thinking of going in anti-depressants just know it's not as simple and easy as doctors might make out. My journey is still going and right now I feel 100% worse than when I started. It is not a decision to take lightly so please consider all options first.

I also want to thank for you being understanding towards mental illness, it is the same as a broken arm, unfortunately you just can't see it.

Stay strong beautiful and remember another day is another excuse for a new shade of lipstick! xx
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CREATOR OF HOLLEEDAZE


Hollee started this blog back in 2010 and since then has been writing about any and everything she is passionate about. From beauty and fashion, lifestyle to tutorials whatever you ask for you will get!